I believe that there are things you cannot decide on doing abruptly; especially if it almost became a routine or part of your system. Back in 2007, I started to be very supportive of the entertainment industry and got to know some artists and attend some very showbiz events. It became so routinely that I barely have time for my laundry or to rest on my days off from work, it almost became excessive and there are instances that I had to file for vacation leaves.
Come 2008, I decided to keep it down to a minimum and just choose which events I attend to; I also lessened my communication with my artist friends. I did miss these people but you know I felt that I had to do it for myself. I felt that I might have gotten obsessed by it that I got too involved and emotionally attached to fanaticism. I started comparing them verbally and maybe even went to far when I think I slightly meddled with their lives and it almost blew out of proportion. So held up for a while and became a little out of reach but reachable.
As 2008 progressed, I focused more on my job and thought of giving the whole entertainment thing a rest, be detached. That was one of my New Year’s Resolutions, earlier today I also thought of not communicating with any of them or people related to them at all, unless they start the conversation.
I was almost at it as 2008 was about to end 2009 entered just me, work and home. The first 10 days of January juggled up everything. I have a friend whose been asking me to join her in supporting some newbie. A model turned to impromptu everything, at first I was hesitant so I did not respond and decided not to respond. I got another message and I told myself that this would be my last. I probed a little, I wanted to know what was in for me, her answer convince and I went.
So I met the athlete turned model, turned reality TV winner, now host and actor and I got interested, so interested, so that week was just about him. I was so interested that I also visited the set of his first acting job. It was so meant to be as the artist he was paired with is a friend I haven’t talked to in a while, she was so glad to see me and the feeling was the mutual. According to her, he asked if we were close and she said we’re friends, gawd!!! So there, since I documented his first acting stint, we had a reason to communicate aside from the photos, we also exchanged numbers.
While enjoying the new acquaintance, an old friend experienced a tragic accident and witnessed a death of someone he loves. The news shocked me and I felt for my friend instantly. They are in mourning and also in shock and are now undergoing professional help to facilitate their recovery. I did not dare to pry for details; I just supported them and prayed for them.
With that being said, just earlier today, I decided to hold back on communicating with all of them the artist friends, because I feel I might revert back to how I was in 2007. Although earlier too, I was in continuous chat with the new acquaintance.
Now I am focusing my energy to things I am required to do. I am evaluating, reevaluating and I realized that I don’t really have to leave one for the other. I would have to learn how to balance and to put hierarchy on my priorities.
carpe diem... ü
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