one thing i want people to know about me is that i don't and i never plan to celebrate my birthday. not that i'm not happy bout another year given to me but i feel that its just not worth it. sometimes though i think of what a party it would be like if do throw one. i thank the people who consistently greet me every year, my family, old friends and not so old friends. I'm also glad to hear greeting from people that i just met. jovelle one of my high school friends who's also a colleague even posted a birthday greeting in our department's bulletin board... so sweet. I'm still trying to get the ropes with my new job but i am all good. so those would be the people that i'll definitely invite.
i went to mass first thing in the morning, i never miss my sunday obligation and birthday happened to fall on that day. one my cousins asked what my blow out was, i said none just the mass. my birthday is not a holiday nothing to celebrate about, only to thank for. I thanked God for another chance in life and I also plan to pamper myself. Pampering myself is not spending money to feed people.
i've been going through a lot lately, i usually starts at this time of the year. which makes me remember a text from mai which says "Repeated experiences have one aim: to teach what you refuse to learn." She's right, maybe there are things i refuse to learn and unlearn. but i am changing i becoming a person i never thought i will be. i know that i'm wiser now and more sensitive but i am believe i'm still headstrong and indifferent. What I am trying to learn now is to balance my heart and mind. Yong is right I'm heartless and I don't really care of what people think or feel. Not the I go out the way to hurt people. I do things my way without any intentions of hurting others. If do offend anyone I'm sorry. I make mistakes and I admit and own up to it, but that does not make me a bad person.
I have always been open to criticism, talk to me and tell me what you want me to address and I will straighten things out.
june is also the time of the year i realize plenty of things. i've meet meeting new people every month and i am very excited to know them and be friends with them. although it really takes time for me to know that not all these people are potential friends. i have also realized that little by little there already a path that i have chosen to take. its up to me to make the journey fruitful and a positive learning experience. i will continue to make mistake because i am not perfect, the mistakes usually are the things that teaches you more lessons and make you a better person. i am not very wise but i continue to learn to grow, something i'll never get tired of.
the road can lead me anywhere... whatever comes... bring it on... i believe in one cosmic power to turn things around...
carpe diem... ü
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