alright i know that i said previously that ill stop sulking over love and all it has brought me. bear with me on this, its different.
for some reason i stayed in the office 2 hours after my shift, i really had nothing to do and when i finally went out of the building im glad to know i stayed, because the rain was just so bad and i hate getting soaked even if im just headed home. so there i started walking my usual route home and i saw a familiar face in a white shirt and slack. this person was slightly with highlights and some weight gained. the person's face was smiling and i believe the person mouthed my name as i passed by where this familiar person is standing. common friends were around and i saw them ofcourse they were all smiling. but the only thing on my eyes was this very person and not seeing him for the longest time it was a different sight. i was so dumbfounded, i didnt know what i was doing, did i smile? did i wave back?
i can not do with the fact that whatever i do this person will always have an effect on me. unlike before though that it pains me to even look even if there is so much love in my heart and seething longing, this time it was like enlightening to see that this person is happy. i was just so happy but there was no expression in me. it occured to me that yes around that time this person hangs out there for coffee and well, unlike before that i was i always anxious to even strut there because i know that the hang out place. this morning was different i was dang clueless. and there it was my first love... who never fails to give me that look that really gets me flustered. my first love... the smile was like morining sunshine... like vapor on trees and flowers in springtime.
it will never leave... what you gave me is a fire that burns forever. you'll be in my heart.
carpe diem!!!
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